i dont know..??? i am...

i am on my preparation producing my mini album...there will be a simple launch for it end of february..

i am feeling guilty..i love my job now..but i need to take care of my family business..my father ask me to drop my current job..i am planning to contribute more to my current job..so.?

i am happy that i dont have to repeat any paper for the next semester..


Alhamdulillah..

~unusual~

OWH.! one more thing..to be added -

5) Adik..amik amik amik amik towel..hmm..amik towel lap muka mama elok2 tau. elok2 tau..hm elok2..taknak nnt org datang tengok mama comot..

~unusual~

OWH.! one more thing..to be added -

5) Adik..amik amik amik amik towel..hmm..amik towel lap muka mama elok2 tau. elok2 tau..hm elok2..taknak nnt org datang tengok mama selekeh..

very unusual... Salam, for those - who has mum...

im begging you, please appreciate ur mum.... once Allah take it back, there will be no replacement 4 us..."sekali kamu berbuat baik pada orang tuamu, 10 kali anakmu akan membalasnya, begitu juga sebaliknya" Allahuakbar keeps His promises so beware...

@ 11:09 pm ~ i wrote

she's awake-about 9pm.. but started to talk nonsense since 10.30 just now.. things make me cry :

1) Mama lapar..adik..tadikan, waktu dalam bilik bedah kan, mama dah cakap2 dengan tuhan dah.. cakap2..cakap2..mama dah cakap mama taknak mati dulu sebab mama sayang anak2 and cucu2 mama...mama nak hidup dgn dorg lagi...mama dah cakap tau...dah cakap..

2) kalau adik takdekan...kalau adik takdekan..kalau adik, kakla, kak ina takdekan.. siapa nak jaga mama kan?

3) pukul berapa ni? mama pakai apa ni? (while her hand rubbed his 'underneath' - i said "it's pampers mama"..

4) @ 11.05pm, she asked "dah malam ke ni? ni malam ke?"

Doctor said the surgery part is too cloze with the saraf muka, otak and ear drum, he will try his best to not to construct any complications...but i dont believe him...because, kita merancang tuhan menentukan...

unusual.. :(

my mum now-is in the operation theatre..the surgery is on going.. i supposed 2 go to the Hua Hua Hua shootin' yesterday but mama comes first..i called fazreen to change the schedule.. doctor says no worries.. hope so..?? i really really really wish that everythings gonna be ok..i've been sleepin here 4 two nites - going to 4 maybe..if thing goes fine, she will be discharged on friday..i've been crying since 3.15pm.. dalam hati aku "aku ada soooraaanngg je mak...takkan ada lagi.. aku cuba jadi anak yang terbaik untuk dia dunia akhirat" Allah gave me one and only of her...some of others, ada yang dah meninggal...ada yang terpisah.. ada yang tak peduli...so selagi hayat dikandung badan, nyawa pun sanggup aku tukar..

"kira dah habis kawan la ni..??" haha.. this is my friends and i.. dear my friends, bak iklan McD - "i'm not going anywhere.." we spend our time together a lot than our mother don't we.? so if there's something wrong with us, i will trully sad..

and today, (another sad segment for today) i received an email from abang = hazman a.k.a. mambo.. he said ;

Hi, Assalamualaikum, Just nak minta maaf banyak-banyak... Setiap kali sebelum Hari Raya, saya akan terkenang kat awak...

my god - i must be strong!! i'm married.!!

~UNUSUAL~

once a year!! of coz la unusual.. Selamat berpuasa to all... i miss my father so... i haven't see him since the puasa started..i don't know what is more important than family values..? money..? nope! money can't buy your family..unless - you kena culik! haha.. nope - na'uzubillah...

~malam matrade~ USUAL

for the first time of malam matrade - my friends and i didn't join the cultural group.. bengang sehhhhh..

orang suka cerita berbalik2 nih, back stabbing, fitnah, penipu makan duit etc.. menari setengah mati-marah yang dapat..fitnah pon dapat...

tak di appreciate lansung...

yang paling bodoh skali - i quit from dancing, join koir (totally choir! coz previously = both)

they started to 'draw' a gap between the 'ex' and current cultural group..the manager - really have a damn sidelong glance at me..motif jeling? bodow kan...? tak profesional....



kesian....atas ni gambo koir.. bawah ni tarian (DULUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU)

TO ME ~ UNUSUAL

unless kalau dia tu MUTAN.!!

i know sumone..in my office..yang kesiannya blog dia..hey come on! HIDUP TAK SELALUNYA INDAH kan..? but her blog - like she has so damn cool world than others. intend dia tu more to - "people are goin to read these so, BUAT YANG HEBAT2 la.." kesian la..ada manusia yang suka menunjuk2 ya...?

what do i have........mmmmm..

i have (currently) my family members..ramai - will tell ya later..
my cool friends.. linde+jue+fie+maknam+juju..
my husband..papa
i have a very simple life..

VERY UNUSUAL..

my first show as an artist...kahkahh..poyo giler la plak ayat...

UNUSUAL

i just had my surgery..25/2/2008..to remove my cyst...and that was veeeeerryyyyy UNUSUAL..sakit siot..memang serik..

weeeyyyyyyyyyy..da lame tak bloggin beb..

MC lama (bukan MC hammer tau)..

balik opis je - had to attend kursus la pe jadah macam2..ni picture me and jue playin WAR GAMES..

DAMN it was cool.!!!

Alhamdulillah - UNUSUAL

it was a nice trip..will post the pix later yup.! i really hope Allah will keep my father's 'PAT' a.k.a 8 (in Chinese - u know what does it means...) forever.. not for me - of course.! for his BIIIIIIIIIGGGGGGG family. i am not trying to be snobbish but there's an up and down in business..you know.so please ALLAH...keep his '8' .. not for me...erk - 1 out of 10 yes but, seriously, i just don't want my father get into any trouble at his age.. he supposed to live happily ever after till the death do his apart..so to you mama..i love you so.. damn! i love my family so..

Trip to sabah..UNUSUAL..

I'm going there, early in the morning tomorrow..
go with one piece, hope to come back in a piece to..
INSYAALLAH..

but the usual thing is - NIK NORIZA..
sorry la nik, i really cannot respect and accept you as my stepmother. If you guys, know her too (seriously, not because of i dislike her) you will definitely agree that my father is one of the most unluckiest man in the world..she's a woman that don't cook (ups, she did..once a year kot), damn lazy -rumah tu macam tongkang pecah, let her children starving+tidy up the house+do the laundry, but in the same time - hunt for akhirat.. for her, dunia is harta - not kebajikan. she will never say thanks 2 you or (i think) she never learned how to say thanx and my mum? keeps helping and helping and helping like s***id.. penyabarnye - not like me..and this Nik, the only thing she knows beside sembahyang is/are to sit back and relax (in one place) waiting for
money, shopping (never for adzri), last but not least sleeping..

my mum wants to bring Adzri, my brother a.k.a. nik's son to mekah 4 umrah.. he's not 18 yet so the REAL parents must come to the immigration in order to adzri own a passport.

Adzri tu memang dah tinggal dgn aku dari kecik sebab mak aku kesian tengok dia masa baby hari2 makan biskut meri dengan air sejuk, kepala kudis2 mak dia tak bawak gi immune, and when the time my mum asked 4 her permission to raise him - she was very OK with it (like redha la kan, org dah nak - nak buat mcm mana..), but now, even a very small mistake,she'll blame my mother.. blame from far (u know what i mean?).. she don't even care about adzri but she feels like having fun by blaming my mother on how my mum raised adzri.siap bagi hadis2, and kata my mum kafir and tuduh my mum tak sembahyang, (tak tau pulak aku kalau nak smayang kena bentang sejadah depan muka dia..??), not givin enuff education etc..

back to the immigration..pompuan tu macam biasa, lepas tangan - call xnak angkat, msg tak berjawab..menyusahkan mama je where she has to submit the forms, copy of passports etc at least 2 months in advance (dorg nak gi bulan 3 ni..) Nik, please la...don't blame other people kalau anak kau rosak..you don't even show that you care for him..

salam..

i made this - the blog - to make it as ~

a friend of mine..hope this page gonna be my best friend ever..

and ~

a wall for me to write anything that is related to my feelings, my days, my life,

my properties, my stories, etc that is usual - unsual and very unusual..