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aku rasa tak 'best' hari ni..
dengan 5o+1 invitees yang baca ni..harap dapat buka minda kita sama2..especially aku..

ok yin,

sejauh mana dapat kita pastikan kawan kita tak berpuak2 di belakang kita dan mengata pasal kita dekat kawan kita juga...

sejauh mana dapat kita pastikan kawan kita tidak membeza2kan 'hubungan' rapat tu dengan kita dan kawan2 yang lain..

how far to be able 100% sure that the friend of us, sincere with us..

sejauh mana dapat kita pastikan kawan kita tidak berpura-pura dengan kita...

sejauh mana dapat kita pastikan yang kita tidak terasa kalau kawan kita beri responce pada kawan2 yang lain tetapi tidak kita...

sejauh mana dapat korang pastikan yang kawan2 korang dapat menerima dengan ikhlas segala kelebihan yang Allah bagi pada korang.....

sejauh mana dapt korang pastikan kawan korang gembira dengan berita gembira korang..?

there are so much more and the bad thing is? we will never knew..
selagi kita ada kawan yang hipokrit, selagi tu kita akan menghadapi masalah yang sama
over and over again sebab DIA TETAP DIA (orang yang sama) walau masa berubah. melainkan dia berubah.. Alhamdulillah..

so readers dan aku jugak,

puji la kawan anda samarata, hormat juga samarata, jujur samarata, ikhlas samarata,
dan apa saja samarata..!!!!

its true "dalam kawan2 mesti ada yang kita selesa lebih".. but if the friend does encourage you the same negative thought - just like the way you feel, itu bukan 'kawan selesa' tapi itu kawan setan.. ^(+_+)^ )setan sungguh gambar itu)

a true friend will neutralize you from negative to positive.. a true friend will not have this fucking 'high school girls type' of jelous feelings on you..a true friend will understand why does Allah made the human to each other..seperti kenapa manusia mencipta pelekat untuk menampal kertas yang koyak..

till then,

mamayin

very unusual.......

..........because,

InsyaAllah..this is my first and the last husband that i have in life...

i used to cheat on him...what a stupid me...

it all started when he does not paying any attention to me on the first year we were married...

lack of love but he gave his full responsibilities.. but i don't want that..i want love and attention..

i have been pampered since i was baby from my family because i am the youngest ..

Unlike him..he has a hushed family (till now)...

Then, my friends started to boycott me.. I didnt realize at first place because they had reproach about me behind..until i found out in m6's email.. Sorry m6 if you read this..

but she'd be the only person that did not mentioned any 'sorry' sampaila peristiwa dalam surau tu pon dia tak cakap apa2 dan masih mempertahankan yang tindakan dia tu betul.. like dia rasa kalau cakap, aku tak dapat terima la.. macam2 lagi la.. kalau masuk bulan 7 ni....genap 2 tahun la peristiwa ni berlaku..forget about it.. sebab sekarang pun kami lebih rapat daripada dulu..

Semua yang buruk tu ada hikmah....Allah telah menyusun yang sebaik-sebaiknya untuk kita...

Alhamdulillah later than the confession have made, my husband and i tried/try/tries to change..orang putih kate, turn over the new leaf...

now, im counting the day to my 2nd anniversary - this coming 16 March..

Dear Cik Abang,

like you always said - i dedicate my life to you till death do us apart...

sweet lol!!!

Love,

Cik Ayang. :')

usual

i love comics...manga...anime...
i am a comic collector.. (more than 20 comics lol!)
i read those teens' novels...
especially from cecily von ziegesar...
i play nintendo portable boy game..
i have one!
i have a strong tendency on buying cartoon characters products..
and more...

The fact is, i am going to 24 this year.. aku pernah dengar ceramah
MUHASABAH DIRI KITA UNTUK MENJADI SEORANG IBU/BAPA YANG CEMERLANG..
LIHAT PADA DIRI KITA..ALLAH MAHA MENGETAHUI BILA WAKTU YANG SESUAI UNTUK KITA MEMPUNYAI ANAK..

so, am i ready..? am i fucking ready?

...unusual...

my husband went to India for a month..Attending a course.. and while him away, i received those..last saturday..14/2/2009..from him... thanx papa for the sweetest thought.. he knew that i dont celebrate such Velentine's what so ever so he mentioned nothing about that stuff.. thanx for that. mmuah!